spring? not quite
Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005so there’s nothing quite like not having a working furnace and running out of wood to make one acutely aware of all things weather. it snowed at the house this morning, but overall i notice a net loss of white on the ground. i’ll take it as a good sign. at least there was some sun in effect today.
have been thinking about the physical effects of winter and how they contribute to the mental state of winter: the cold makes you clench up, contract, hold your limbs in tight about you. it’s a physical contraction that leads to an emotional/social contraction — all i wanna do is hibernate. all energy is conserved. focus inward. as the temperature is (slowly, slowly) rising, i lift my head more. i notice things. i remember what life was like outside my head. my curiousity about the world re-emerges. i am hyper-aware of passersby — i pick up on the details of their faces, their expressions — i feel for them and wish them happiness and fulfillment, as i have struggled hard to achieve a bit of my own. compassion. we are all human, all connected. spring is a reaching out, a regrowth, a reawakening. i am smiling.